Jan 4 2012

Well last night went perfect. I even went to bed early so that I did not have to think about my little night snacks. Love munching at night. This is what I need to break. I ate everything by 8 pm. Stayed up till 9 then went and watched a little tv in bed and was a sleep by 10.

Woke up this morning dragging a little bit. But got up moving eating my yummy breakfast then took my son to school and volunteered in his class. And then it happened. For some reason EJ could not control his emotions. He just started crying. So we both decided he should come home. Now being a mother we totally cherish those days with no one home. It does not happen very often. Especially if your husband has been out of work for 7 months. I was so looking forward to getting things done and working out, and cleaning house. So it was a bit of a let down when I walked my son to our car and said come on home, we will try to figure this out.

Now I have not strayed from my eating times. Trying to eat every 3 to 4 hours. Trying to keep my body thinking it will have food at all times so it can let go of the fat. Drinking my water which I drink 2 1/2 liters yesterday.

So now I am getting ready to make my lunch and sit down and enjoy it while EJ is taking a nap. Who knows maybe mommy might take one too. My eyes are feeling very heavy right now.

Jan 3 2012

Well I started out of bed in a daze and grabbed and handful of walnuts. Unknowing I popped them into my mouth. Out the door I went to walk my son to the bus stop. On my way back I realized I am hungry. And it dawned on me it is the day to start a change of behavior. After that, it was on.

I made my breakfast of whole wheat english muffin toasted with 1 TB of peanut butter, 2 jimmy dean turkey sausage and a couple of triple antioxidant green tea. I truly enjoy this breakfast. It is easy and quick. So this what I have every morning no matter what.

I then went off to work for about 2 hours then came back and had my snack of 1 oz of almonds and 1 string cheese. I sat down for a minute and thought about what I need to do. I got off the couch and did 30 minutes of cardio ( Dance Moves 3 on the Wii, I figure I will get my groove on!! I did have to keep yelling at the dogs to get off the floor or they will be trampled on!!

I then cleaned the house, and made my yummy lunch!!! I had 4 oz of tuna cucumbers peppers onions 2 1/2 TB light mayo, 4 oz of greek yogurt with cinnamon, I was going to have a banana but they were to green!!! So now I am full I have 1 1/2 liters of water and it is only 1:45 in the afternoon.

I will have a small honeycrisp apple, with 1 TB of peanut butter and 1 oz of walnuts for my snack.

I did weight myself morning and I weighed 280.6 at 5' 7". I am going to only weigh myself once a week. So we will see what will happen next Tuesday.

I also put some thought into having a free day. So a month from now I will take a Saturday or Sunday and not put such a thought into my day!! I am hoping after a period of time I will not feel like I need to have or gorge on a treat. That eating healthy will just come natural and I will just grab for those things that are better for me!!!

my menu

It took me about an hour but I came up with a menu for my first week. It is not an exciting one but it is a good menu. The first week is stabilizing my blood sugars and eating way more food then I normally eat. You know, I really only eat maybe once or twice a day because I am so busy. So now I have to work on getting my body use to having fuel all the time so it will let go of the fat. I also made up a workout calendar for the week. My plan is to get at least 20 minutes in 3x's a day to just help get more energy and burn the fat. I will post my menu. Make the day count!! I am going to with grocery shopping and prepping all my food tonight so I will have a successful week.

Jan 2 2012

To days the day!!! A health change. I need to start loving myself!!! So with the tools my wonderful friend Carolyn taught me. I am going to plan out my meals for the week and go grocery shopping. I am going to set myself up for success. Then I will plan out an excessive routine for the week. I am going to make time for myself.

I will also write down the numbers we all hate to see and then take pictures. I figure this might encourage me, if I see what I don't want to to see. Lets admit it we don't see ourselves as bad as we are. We don't want to think we are that out of control. Well my friend I know I am.

Another New Years resolution?

Here I am, the year 2012 and at age 42. All of my life I have been a big girl. Every year saying I am going to loose weight. Another year goes by and I have started loose 20 pounds and then gain it back by the end of the year. So I am trying something different. I thought life everyone else in today's times, I would blog about it. What makes me different you ask then everyone else blogging about something, not a damn thing. I am just a woman trying to find her way thru life being healthy and happy with who she is.

My name is Kelly, I am 42, a wife, a mother, a friend, a den leader, a stylist, a volleyball player, a traveler, and everything else under the sun. My son is 7 and was born blind. I think of him growing up with out me and everything I am going to miss out on if I don't do something about my weight. So this is for me, not to miss out on the roller coaster rides (my husband will not do them), zip lining thru the tropics, backpacking thru Europe and most of all watching him become an incredible man that I know he will be.

I am not one that just sits around and does nothing. I work as a stylist in a small salon 3 days a week. I am the den leader for my sons cub scout den. I play volleyball (I have been playing for over 25 years), I help out in my sons class, I do the cooking cleaning, running around. It does not leave much time for me.

I WILL CHANGE MY WAYS! I will make the time for me!! My expedition of a new way of thinking, living and LOVING! This is important to change my thinking about every day, how I live and  to love myself.